I have never self-love, yet I expect other people to love me. That shouldn’t be how it goes.
I have no confidence, low self-esteem and everyday I am envious of other people and their lives, their looks and what they do.
Everyday I get stressed that I am not good enough. Not good enough for my job, for my boyfriend, who is fantastic. He loves me just the way I am, and I couldn't ask for anymore. but, deep below, I have a self-loathing and I hate myself for it.
How do I cope?
I cope with the stress, with the negative vibes by repeating positive quotes and mantra's in my head. quotes that are relatable to me. quotes that I hear people say everyday, even if they're small and meaningless to them. If it makes me feel positive, I will repeat it. I am suffering silently and nobody knows. nobody apart from you, you who is reading this now. I feel positive when my boyfriend says that he loves me for me, and that he loves the shape of my body, my hair when it's not brushed. me without make-up, me with make-up... but I cannot help but brush that off, and react to him in a way he doesn't like.
So, I am pledging that as of now (I don't care if it's the middle of the month) I am writing down at least 1 positive thought and 1 random act of kindness per day. it can't hurt, right?
well, I hope you will follow me on my journey of self-love and positivity.
Take care,
Kim xoxo
